Tuesday, 30 December 2008

  • Last year's resolutions:

    1. Fall in love with Jesus all over again.
    2. Be completely debt-free.
    3. Develop deeper relationships with a "family" of believers (go beyond just mere friendship and into a family life of continual, intentional communication/meeting)
    4. Learn to function confidently and securely in a family/community group
    5. Love people at their core (live outside expectation and reaction)

    Well..... all but one, by the grace of God, have been fostered in me. I have yet to be debt-free. Relationships are always the most important to Him so I'm content with 4 out of 5 It's been a challenging year of immense growth.

    I'm in love with God and God's in love with me
    This is who I am and this is who I'll be
    And that settles it.
    Completely.

    This is the total truth in retrospect of everything He's walked through with me this year. I can't believe it's already 2009. 2008 was a year of stagnant creativity. The 'growing up' season of my life was of high importance to His Kingdom. Now the creativity has begun to return and invigorating passions are rising out of me! My vocabulary is shifting. Original music is bubbling out of me and into my guitar playing. Relationships are becoming full and beautifully free. "I love you" is spoken between His children for no reason other than love Himself at least twice a week. It is a bittersweet memory that must be let go for new births to happen this new year. As I sat down to reflect and to input my new resolutions for this upcoming season, my mind is speechless. I have never been so satisfied in all my life. Perhaps, this year will be one of taking care of my physical self more than my spiritual self. I've neglected that area...not purposely, but because there were greater priorities on my heart to address with Jesus. Now.. ah, my list for 2009:

    1. Develop an exercise regimine and stick with it.
    2. Budget groceries into income.
    3. 95% debt free (perhaps this is a more practical resolution )
    4. Simplify lifestyle (die more to the flesh and live for Jesus) and step into calling of intercession/missions at least four times a week/two times a year.

    It's a start at least... praying about God's plans and will report on them later.

    "You are God, I am man. You are sovereign."

Tuesday, 04 November 2008

  • Been awhile...

    Currently in Ohio visiting family for the first time since February. It's been an excellent visit so far and I'm realizing quickly how much of my bad attitude was attributed to a religious spirit. ugh. I'm having greater opportunity to see more people in less amount of time without any stress whatsoever. It's truly a wonderful thing!

    Since my last entry, God has shown His immeasurable grace in my finances, jobs, and housing placements. I started nannying in May and have just recently had that door close (thank You, Lord for making that decision so evidently for me!) and am moving for the 7th time, once I return, since last October.

    I am an entirely new being. I feel like a child all grown up without co-dependency on anything or anyone. I am learning how to work with the Body as each individual part builds the others up according to the giftings and abilities of everyone. Unity is such a blessing and prosperous entity to possess. To die MORE, I ask of You!

    Last week, I spent in PA at a Voice of the Apostles conference where I was "ordained" by Heidi Baker (my spiritual mama even if she doesn't know it yet ) to do full-time overseas missions. Oh, the joy that possessed me to know the love of my Daddy for His children! And to have the full support of my church family (they literally pulled me over the pew bench to go up for the "ordination" after I had given up the thought of ever asking her for her blessing!) I laid on the floor, embellished in His mercy, crying out for the children. "There are too many, Lord!" The weight.. the weight.. I am praying for the Lord's answer about working under Heidi in Mozambique next June for 3 months. But I only desire to go if my Love is going, too. For, if He does not wish for us to go, it would only be wasted time and another opportunity would be sacrificed.

    So I am excited to move into my own place...to decorate, to influence the atmosphere, to lift up my Jesus in praise in a home I can call MINE! Ohhhhhhh hahahaha the joy..

    Until next time...Walk into your blessings!!! No fear!!!! You are royalty!!!

Wednesday, 28 May 2008